same, but different

On top of this being a shameless promotion of my first weekend intensive, I was inspired to write by my good friend Lawrence, inspired by his honest words in his blog. I have taken quite the break from writing full sentences (as you can see if you scroll down my recent posts), as I worked in revealing the truthful vibration behind each and every word that comes out. That has been my work for months, a part of the Tantric path is to work with words and thought constructs and purify them, to release what is not working for you. Well, the way I took this was to stop writing and first work on speech - until I could feel that every word was in resonance, making harmonious music with my very core, that deep internal place within me where I connect to my spirit, my essence. This was tough. It took time. Months. The work revealed itself in many ways; dietary changes, shifts in practice, my relationship to my body, how I feel desiring to transfer into how I expressed myself. There have been many stumbles, times when I feel I have hit a wall and the emotion wanting to burst forth but the uncertainty of which words to choose halting the progression. With each halt arose more deep, internal work, either in naming the barricade or letting it fall. I stripped my ego bare in order to rebuild it, with new perceptions waiting at the sidelines ready to replace the old ones. I am still a work in progress. So please honour my disjointed ramblings, yet please know they are coming from a place you can trust.

During my work into revealing my dark, it was quite incredible how so much light blasted through in the process. I feel different, I sometimes even think I look different. Same, but different. Incredible immense light co-habitating my body with the dark spots that still love me so. I am calm as I sit and write, I transmit freely, ready for the larger ventures to come. I am heading to Peru, you see. To unplug from the day-to-day, to dive into Mother Earth's receptive and warm embrace, to literally bury my roots into the earth, to plunge into the depths of her womb. It is time to be nurtured by the Great Mama, allowing me time to play. My playtime will consist of art, creating words on my paper canvas, deciphering more of the essence of my truth, my wisdom and what I must share. Exploring the mirror of the land and the sea, emoting when needed and stoically still when required. Revealing more and more of my truth, discovering and delighting in the desires of my heart. Internal harmony so I can fully reflect that into creating resonance within my external me, my surroundings.

It's so sweet to feel this resonance, my personal orchestra flowing through this epic piece of my life. Aligning with all the sound instruments and musicians, I see that I'm not the only one out there with this readiness for the reveal. I am looking forward to many collaborations this year, continuing to connect with those that I am contracted with, for those blessed individuals that I am beaming to call the assembly. That's it, that's all this transitional year is as of now, simply stacking the cards, assembling the participants. Attempting to peak out from my internal landscape and discover in the truthful expression of our journeys that our landscapes are similar. Same, but different. So, yes, I am excited about my very first weekend workshop, which I'd like to call Core Intensive instead. Core, being the central, innermost or most essential part of anything. Intensive, as in requiring a high concentration of a specified quality or element. Lawrence and I look forward to revealing parts of the process, two teachers sharing what has came up thus far. The quality of the work is it's depth, it's piercing quality to see you, full reveal to see what was concealed.

Unity is a place to look forward to. The wild, chaos of transitional now is a place for us to simply act to what resonates, what feels in harmony with all of our body - [physical, mental, emotional, ego and spiritual] - no judgements allowed. To find out how, we must act, we must practice, the tools of our chosen tradition. Aiding in the calm within the storm. The juxtaposition of supposed opposites living in symbiosis within. Assembly is congregating this weekend, I anticipate the cards will stack just right. Those who are ready for the work will come, the work of burning down those preconceived notions of existence, getting into those places of discomfort, facing those places within that harbor fear. And processing it, that's all we can do. As we work with our core of our self, revealing the truthful similarities while honouring the differences.

"Meditation and spiritual practice are good, but also action. It's very important to be clear about who you are, and also about your relation to the Earth. Develop yourself according to your own tradition and the call of your heart. But remember to respect differences, and strive for unity." - Carlos Barrios, Mayan Elder