I awoke to a deep wail, the roar turning within me, a flood of emotions pulsating, waiting to erupt. Once I began I couldn't stop, sobbing as I cleansed my body, the hot water beating against me, intermingling with my wet tears. I didn't apologize, it was the first time I just let myself cry. Not a performance, not trying to get any outcome, just allowing the sadness and despair flow through me, release from deep within. I cried for my wounds, I cried for the wounds of my friends I have witnessed, the wounds that are a part of my family. I allowed myself to fully feel the power of this emotion. I have always gone more so the route of laughter than tears. I feel love and light, and want to celebrate it with the world. That celebratory release is laughter. Laughter is bliss! I was overwhelmed by the shakti I felt course through me. Sobbing - I embraced my inner goddess, the divine feminine shakti that I connected to so deeply. I am an emotional being! I feel you, I feel me. Crying is deep CIT - recognition and remembrance of all that is me, all that is you, all that is us. The good, the bad and the ugly. The hurt, the wounds and the wisdom. I allowed my inner waters to flow, to move, to shift. I allowed myself feel the rawness of this emotion, the deep power that is encapsulated within the roar, a scream, a wail. By the time I brought nourishment to my lips, the tears were spent. My skin glowed in a knowing way, my eyes full of tejas, that inner light. I felt so full of love, so calm and connected. I was still once again.
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