Easy, Breezy, Beautiful

Wow, summertime flies! This month is whirling by with me teaching more classes and frundraisers, and attempting to practice my learnings from last month, embrace life! Well, embracing life, the people within it and the impromptu circumstances that arise do make the weeks joyfully flow by in the most effervescent way. But it hasn't been all ice cream and sunshine. As the rain and humidity have blanketed our weeks, my mind continues to return to my work with foundation and willpower. I have had to remind myself constantly as the summer heat blasts my fire into overdrive, to open to grace, my breath, my spirit and embrace the cool earth beneath my feet. It's hard keeping stable! I know you may laugh at that, but really, I kid you not, it's taken me almost thirty years to feel like I have established a solid foundation, and it's not like that foundation has turned to concrete! There's still times I feel myself slipping down the creative slope, ready to catch the next wave and see where it takes me. It's super rewarding, but stillness sometimes sucks! Yup, it can be super challenging to look at the simple basic truth, put yer feet on the ground, girl! Once I feel the earth, the connection so solid, I tend to go into overdrive... I want to build great towers from that small piece of earth. But as most of my friends know, I ain't no architect, and my tower could fall. I am learning instead how to farm the soil, to cultivate growth, to wait for seeds to grow. As I aim to sit patiently, I attempt to remember to breathe, to fill my lungs with hope, trust and faith that all will happen, the results assured - what you plant will grow. As the fiery sun beats it's grand head down on me, I yearn to go back to places of comfort: achievement, success, goals and internal contemplation. But this external world, with such delights and sorrows, that spirals up and down and back up again, I wouldn't trade this newfound connection for anything! But if I seem to be clenching my teeth when I smile, please compassionately understand that for a pitta-scorpio-metal-monkey-water sign (do you like that one??) my quiet, determined, clearcut refined and ultimate world is expanding every minute. So much so, that I do not know how to define it anymore. So... I guess I'll just live? and love? and learn?